| What protects a heart? Nothing much. |
[19 Feb 2008|09:16pm] |
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I've been holding onto this for almost 5 months now. The words are locked in my throat. My words stumble out of me and cower in their quick reverse. I' ve always known that I needed to take my time, but now I'm so afraid that time is against me. The longer I keep this to myself, the more hopeless I feel. But telling you everything that I have would do nothing more than build an invisible wall between us. I just wish you would give me your time of day....I would do anything just for a little while. I wish you thought I was actually worth your time of day...as a REAL person...flesh and blood...not digits and binary code. It seems that my fingertips will always say more than my lips ever will...and I wish that wasn't the case.
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[25 Oct 2007|09:06pm] |
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I am not moving forward. I am not growing. Everything is stagnant.
I am lonely. I am missing people that I ought not to miss.
I wish there was something more.
I wish there was a single person who I could feel 100% open with in a reciprocal way...
...I've been wanting to learn and get to know everything there is to know about you,
but there's a wall that I can't break past.
I wish I could trust and rely on you,
because I want to.
I wish you knew that you could do the same with me.
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| There are no words! |
[01 Oct 2007|04:52pm] |
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It's strange, the other week I met (or rather, saw and waved at) a person I hadn't met before and I instinctively felt that we would share a much closer relationship...not anytime SOON, maybe even a year from now! With one wave, I felt as though I knew exactly who and how she was...and it wasn't some overwhelming feeling, it was a quietly content feeling in being certain....being certain that something will eventually happen...like...there's no fear of missing out and losing out....there's no need to rush things, because for some reason in my gut I KNOW, in due time, something great and amazing will happen with this girl.... :/ It's like I've barely started running a race, but I know exactly how its going to end, so I don't need to worry about how fast I run...the race is already fixed! haha!
How strange is that! I've never felt that before...just feeling so comfortable, familiar and certain with things that there's no ounce of fear or anxiety whatsoever!
...if I'm CERTAIN about being CERTAIN with these feeling, then I think my life in Singapore is bound to get REALLY GOOD at some point! :D
PLUS, she is the first young person around my age, who I've ever known to be truly interested in the same things (i.e. things to do with spirituality) that I am! Discovering that about her only proved and justified everything that I first thought and felt! WEIRD! O__O but so great at the same time! =)
I just can't wait to get to know her better... =) Such a beautiful stranger...
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[10 Jul 2007|07:59pm] |
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DDDDiiiiIiiIiiiEeEEeE!!!! |
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The only thing that makes me feel alright at the moment
is knowing that a month ago....I was a bigger mess than I am right now.
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| Today I... |
[15 Feb 2007|01:38am] |
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1)...saved a small caterpillar from being squished by my uncle's new Hyundai MPV.
2) ...cried from watching Tyra reunite two soulmates who had not been able to find eachother for 15 years.
3)...told myself that it was alright to be my own Valentine.
 
I suppose being EXCESSIVELY LAME is alright too... :T ...hmmmmm....
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| Prehistoric Lovers |
[11 Feb 2007|03:54pm] |
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Prehistoric Lovers Found in Embrace
(Discovery Channel/Associated Press) 
Feb. 7, 2007 — It could be humanity's oldest story of doomed love. Archaeologists have unearthed two skeletons from the Neolithic period locked in a tender embrace and buried outside Mantua, just 25 miles south of Verona, the romantic city where Shakespeare set the star-crossed tale of "Romeo and Juliet."
Buried between 5,000 and 6,000 years ago, the prehistoric pair are believed to have been a man and a woman and are thought to have died young, as their teeth were found intact, said Elena Menotti, the archaeologist who led the dig. "As far as we know, it's unique," Menotti told The Associated Press by telephone from Milan. "Double burials from the Neolithic are unheard of, and these are even hugging."
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| 21...and still a kid. |
[11 Feb 2007|02:13pm] |
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I am not embarrassed to admit that for my 21st,
I had a Spongebob Squarepants cake.
PATRICK AND SPONGEBOB!!!
(...and the cake has my name on it! How clever...)
Novelty candles ALWAYS melt too fast...have you ever noticed that?
(Excuse the hideous toaster oven in the back.)
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| "Crazy Food Stuffs" Tutorial Part III: How to Open a Cempedak |
[22 Jan 2007|05:30pm] |
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TUTORIAL PART III: HOW TO OPEN A CEMPEDAK
Cempedaks (pronounced CHUHM-puh-dahk) are MASSIVE weird looking fruits.
The cempedak featured in this blog entry was the length of my whole forearm (elbow to fingertips), but I've seen cempedaks as big as 4 human heads put together! I can best describe the smell of unopened cempedaks as smelling like flammable gas (the sort that goes KABOOM! when exposed to naked flame). It stinks that bad. Poopy smell!
The fruit is also super sticky with sap on the outside...so opening it is a bit annoying.
People tend to like to eat this fruit, because its CHEAP and VALUE FOR MONEY
(i.e. it yields A WHOLE LOT of edible fruit)!
OKAY, LET'S OPEN IT! :D
(Note: Opening of fruit was done by my mom. haha!)
#1 Get yourself some newspaper to do the whole opening process on,
as well as a sharp knife and some oil (vegetable/peanut, doesn't matter).
Cover your hands and blade of the knife with oil, so that your hands don't get covered in gooey sap and the knife glides through the fruit casing more easily!
#2 Grab your stinky cempedak and sharp knife and cut deep lines from one end of the fruit to the other.
Cut maybe 6-8 deep lines around the fruit (same as before, from one end to the other) and make sure that the lines MEET at one end of the fruit. This MEETING of the lines is important, because this is the only way that you'll be able to pry the fruit casing open!
#4 On the end where all the cut lines meet...pry the opening wider until the casing is able to be ripped off in segments!
 
#5 RIP a segment of the casing off to reveal the edible cempedak fruits inside! :P
The smell of the fruit inside is completely different from the outside!
It's really hard to describe...but it smells really sweet and REALLY strong.
#6 Pluck out the fleshy inner bits and sort them out in a box/bowl for later.
To reach more of the inner fruit, tear off more of the segment casings.
 
#7 After ripping off more segments of the casing, you'll see how the inner fruits
actually grow out of the honeycomb-textured core of the fruit.
The core is actually quite soft and its connected to the stem of the whole fruit.
WEIRD-LOOKIN! :S
Pluck, pluck and PLUCK AWAY until there are no more fruits left to pluck!
#8 After all the cutting and plucking is gone, you'll be left with a whole heap of edible yummy things!
My mom says that when she was little, they use to deep-fry them to make "CEMPEDAK GORENG"...which basically means DEEP-FRIED CEMPEDAK (goreng means FRIED)...kind of like a fritter, I guess.
We might keep some to eat unfried, but I definitely want to give the fried ones a go! :P
 
#8 (IF EATING FRESH!) Pop a piece of cempedak in your mouth and eat off the fleshy stuff...spit out the seed!
The seed - which is super soft - can also be boiled with gula melaka (i.e. palm sugar) to make a sweeter dessert.
THE END
Coming soon:
How to Make Cempedak Goreng
Deep-frying pieces of cempedak fruit to make yummy fritters! :P
Lunch at Thai Express
Prawn toast, Nam Manao, Black Pepper Glass Noodles with Soft Shell Crab, Cold Seafood and Vermicelli Salad
A Trip to the Cardiac Centre
Getting my chest checked at the National University Hospital :(
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| How to Eat "Crazy Food Stuffs": A Short Tutorial in Mangosteen and Longan Consumption |
[21 Jan 2007|09:23pm] |
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Stuff by BRIGHTEN and SELF AGAINST CITY |
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EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE GOT HUNGRY FOR SOME SAAAHWEEEET THANGS,
so we brought out some MANGOSTEENS AND LONGANS!
The MANGOSTEEN and LONGAN!!!
(Note: Longans are also known as "dragon's eyes", which is a direct translation of the proper mandarin pronunciation of the fruit..."LONG-YAN"...LONG meaning DRAGON and YAN meaning EYE). Also, excuse my shit Chinese writing...I haven't written any Chinese in around a year...HAHA!
TUTORIAL PART I: HOW TO EAT A MANGOSTEEN
Mangosteens are by far my favourite of tropical fruits. I like them because they are weirdly prehistoric-looking and they taste suuuuuuper good. They are always super fragrant and sweet! I find that opening a mangosteen is a bit of a art...it is most definitely an art that I have mastered...unlike my sister, who fumbles around with them and ends up having sticky purple water and flecks of mangosteen casing all over her hands.
#1 Pick up desired mangosteen and ensure that it is
kept well away from greedy siblings' mouths.
Take note of the weird green leaf formation on top of the fruit itself.
Also note that the outside of the fruit may be slightly sticky with sap.
#2 Pry off weird green leaf formation, so that you are left with just
the purple/maroon globular part of the mangosteen fruit.
#3 Using both hands, squeeze the whole fruit until the soft outer "shell"
of the fruit rips and tears. Rip the damn thing open to reveal little
segmented (kind of like oranges) pieces of edible white fleshy bits.
#4 Using your fingers, carefully pluck out the slimey segments of white flesh
(note the segment I'm holding in between my fingers).
Pop that sucker in your mouth...it should be SUPER SWEET and SUPER SOFT!
(Also make note that SOME segments sometimes contain a large seed in the middle, so be careful!)
#5 Pluck all the bits of white flesh out and EAT 'EM ALL!
Eat until the casing is empty...then discard that useless inedible shell awaaaay...and pick up another mangosteen and start all over again! :D
TUTORIAL PART II: HOW TO EAT A LONGAN
Eating longans is a whole lot easier than eating mangosteens. They aren't as yummy and are probably more common (just about as common as lychees)...but they are addictive and once you start, you usually end up eating HEAPS until you're satisfied.
A box of icy cold longans!
(They are best when you keep them in the fridge for a while.)
#1 Pick up a single longan and either dig your nails OR
bite OR squeeze it lightly so that the soft shell rips.
Once a rip is present...just rip the whole shell off.
This will reveal a semi-transparent edible flesh, with a barely visible black seed in the middle. Sort of looks like a super icky eyeball, doesn't it? :S
#2 Pop the whole semi-transparent fleshy bit
in your mouth and CHEW CHEW CHEW around!
Be careful of the super hard black seed inside!
Throw away the seed and the shell and start ALL OVER AGAIN! :D
OKAY. So that is the end of today's
How To Eat "Crazy Food Stuffs" tutorial!
I have decided to turn this blog into a bit of a food blog,
considering Singapore is such a food capital
(with Chinese, Malay, Indian, Thai, Western...and uniquely
Singaporean fare which is a fusion of many of the afore mentioned cuisines)!
So yes, everytime I eat something interesting,
I will take photos and attempt
to talk about the dish's ingredients and origins...
...IT SHOULD BE FUN! :D
FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!! :)
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